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This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Nicholas Knowles. Nicholas was born in Syracuse, New York on January 20, 1979 and passed away on March 01, 2007.  He had just turned 28. We will remember and miss him forever. Nicholas leaves behind his mother, Shelly Knowles, his father, Melvin Youker, a sister, Sara Knowles Anostario, four aunts, Sherry Knowles, Susan Knowles, Laurie Cole and Cheryl Youker, and an uncle, Darryl Youker, as well as several Great Aunts, Uncles, Cousins and many very close friends.  Loved by all, Nick had a way with people. He touched so many souls.  He was strong.  He was honest and honorable.  He was also gifted.  He thirsted for knowledge and soaked up information like a sponge soaks in water.  He accepted all cultures and religions.  He had ideas on everything and loved to discuss things and speak his mind.  Nicholas was always determined and hopeful;  he never gave up on anything he set his mind to. We wish he was still here.  Only the good die young.



Dearest Nicholas:

To honor you, I get up every day
And take a breath
And start another day
Without you in it.

To honor you, I laugh and love
With those who knew your smile,
And the way your eyes sparkled with joy,
Full of life.

To honor you, I take the time
To appreciate everyone I love.
I know now there is no guarantee
Of days or hours spent in their presence.

You are the light of my life,
My gift of love
From our Heavenly Father.

So every day, I vow to make a difference,
Share a smile, live, laugh, and love.
Now I live for us both.
So all I do, I do to honor you,
My precious, beautiful child.
Love Mom

- Author Unknown - borrowed from and in honor of Joseph Morrison Close





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Family Tree
Tributes and Condolences
Dear Mom and Nick   / Shelly Knowles (mother)
   Sherry and I visited Theresa Cosco, Psychic/Medium Consultant on Friday (May 1, 2009).  Our mother was waiting there for us.  Sherry did not understand her messages, but I did.  Mom wanted to acknowledge my feelings during...  Continue >>
It's Easter   / Shelly Knowles (mother)
Here it is, my second Easter without you.
I want to give in to my tears
and let out some of this pain,
but it doesn't seem to do any good

I've been draggin myself around;
sleeping through the day,
feeling sorry for...  Continue >>
Time Keeps Passing   / Shelly Knowles (mother)
Time Keeps Passingand I hate it.Nothing is any goodbecause I can't share it with youI can't watch you enjoy anythingyou can't watch SaraSara can't watch you.and I hate it.I feel the time passingsuch a dull ache and sadnessyou feel so far away,but it ...  Continue >>
Two Years   / Shelly Knowles (mother)
Its been two years since that horrible day;It still feels so unreal.  I wish it wasI remember everything.  Your face, your eyes;The color leaving your face; from golden brown to light yellow;Blood pooling in your feet and legs; so unreal, s...  Continue >>
Where are you?   / Shelly Knowles (mom)
I feel you in your pictures;I imagine you next to me;It feels as if you should be coming home soon;But I know better.Oh my aching heart;All I can do is push the pain away;And function from a distance;How will I ever survive?Where are you Nicholas?Are...  Continue >>
Thinking of you  / Shelly Knowles (mom)    Read >>
Merry Christmas Nicholas  / Shelly Knowles (mom)    Read >>
Thanksgiving 2008  / Shelly Knowles (mom)    Read >>
My Agony  / Shelly Knowles (mom)    Read >>
A Mother's Grief  / Shelly Knowles (mom)    Read >>
http://www.youtube.c-om/watch?v=A9F9x09zB-Hg / Shelly Knowles (mom)    Read >>
Safely Home  / Shelly Knowles (mother)    Read >>
Do you hear me now Nick?  / Shelly Knowles (mom)    Read >>
It still doesn't feel real  / Shelly Knowles (mother)    Read >>
I am waiting  / Shelly Knowles (mother)    Read >>
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His legacy
Not a survivor by choice  
My Mom is a Survivor
~Author~
Copyright 2001 Kaye Des'Ormeaux

My Mom is a survivor,
or so I've heard it said.
But I can hear her crying at night
when all others are in bed.
I watch her lay awake at night
and go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her
to help her understand.
But like the sands on the beach
that never wash away ...
I watch over my surviving Mom
who thinks of me each day.
She wears a smile for others ...
a smile of disguise!
But through Heaven's door
I see tears flowing from her eyes.
My Mom tries to cope with death;
To keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her knows
it is her way to survive.
As I watch over my surviving Mom
through Heaven's open door ...
I try to tell her that angels
protect me forevermore!
I know that doesn't help her,
or ease the burden she bears.
So, if you get a chance, go visit her.
Show her that you care.
For no matter what she says ...
no matter what she feels.
My surviving Mom has a broken heart
that time won't ever heal.


MOTHER  

Ode to Mother

Oh mother, do not grieve for me
For I am up above you
Looking down on thee

It is with my father
That you gave a life to me
But it is in my death
That truly set me free

I have a soul dear mother
That leads me away from thee
I have a higher purpose
That no one else can see

I have begun my journey
You have prepared me well
I will find the way I need to go
As time will tell

Thank you dear mother
I know you’re always there
I must go on without you
But it is with great care

Please understand me mother
And make sure you know
That I have a higher purpose
And it’s time to let me go


Nicholas


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