Memorial website in the memory of your loved one

This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Nicholas Knowles. Nicholas was born in Syracuse, New York on January 20, 1979 and passed away on March 01, 2007.  He had just turned 28. We will remember and miss him forever. Nicholas leaves behind his mother, Shelly Knowles, his father, Melvin Youker, a sister, Sara Knowles Anostario, four aunts, Sherry Knowles, Susan Knowles, Laurie Cole and Cheryl Youker, and an uncle, Darryl Youker, as well as several Great Aunts, Uncles, Cousins and many very close friends.  Loved by all, Nick had a way with people. He touched so many souls.  He was strong.  He was honest and honorable.  He was also gifted.  He thirsted for knowledge and soaked up information like a sponge soaks in water.  He accepted all cultures and religions.  He had ideas on everything and loved to discuss things and speak his mind.  Nicholas was always determined and hopeful;  he never gave up on anything he set his mind to. We wish he was still here.  Only the good die young.



Dearest Nicholas:

To honor you, I get up every day
And take a breath
And start another day
Without you in it.

To honor you, I laugh and love
With those who knew your smile,
And the way your eyes sparkled with joy,
Full of life.

To honor you, I take the time
To appreciate everyone I love.
I know now there is no guarantee
Of days or hours spent in their presence.

You are the light of my life,
My gift of love
From our Heavenly Father.

So every day, I vow to make a difference,
Share a smile, live, laugh, and love.
Now I live for us both.
So all I do, I do to honor you,
My precious, beautiful child.
Love Mom

- Author Unknown - borrowed from and in honor of Joseph Morrison

see Video of Nick:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6mUGbsFoQvA

Click here to see Nicholas Knowles's
Family Tree
Tributes and Condolences
March 1, 2007   / Shelly Knowles (Mom)
My son died today. A part of me died too. I'm different now; I'm more numb than I used to be. I've somehow found a way to cope, but it still hurts every day. Not a day goes by that I don't feel that familiar anguish, for at least a moment or two. If ...  Continue >>
Your birthday   / Shelly Knowles (mother)
 It's your birthday.  I've been waiting for today. I don't know what to do.  You would be 32.  Where would you be; what would you be? I will never know. I miss you so much.  The pain still burns. My throat is on fire.&n...  Continue >>
Why I study Herbal Medicine   / Shelly Knowles (Mother)
My life turned upside down several years ago when my son at age 26 was diagnosed with Stage 4B Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. Despite how horrific it sounded, never did I, nor could I, fathom that this was the beginning of the end. That thought still brin...  Continue >>
Help me Nick   / Mom (mom)
Going to see Dr. V. tonight
Perfect for the way I feel
Alone by myself I can't stop the tears
Trying to regain composure so I can go home

There is no happy pill that will make me happy;
Sometimes it feels they don't wor...  Continue >>
Dad and Nick - I will try   / Shelly Knowles (mother)
I will try to reach you
By embracing the love we shared
By focusing on our good memories
To open the pathway for you

That is what she said
You and Grampa told her I should do
Why is it so hard
when I want it ...  Continue >>
3 years  / Shelly Knowles (Mom)    Read >>
Shelly our pain is too deep  / Valerie DiCuffa (AUNT)    Read >>
Recent Visit from Nick  / Pat Mielke (friend)    Read >>
Crying alone and deep breaths  / Shelly Knowles (mom)    Read >>
The Psychic  / Shelly Knowles (mom)    Read >>
Little Did We Know  / Shelly Knowles (mom)    Read >>
I don't know what to do  / Shelly Knowles (mother)    Read >>
The Medium  / Shelly Knowles (mom)    Read >>
Another Day Without You  / Shelly Knowles (mother)    Read >>
Dear Mom and Nick  / Shelly Knowles (mother)    Read >>
More tributes and condolences...
Click here to pay tribute or offer your condolences
His legacy
The Life of Nicholas Knowles  
http://www.authorstream.com/Presentation/StudyPro-1269363-nicholas-knowles/
The Life of Nicholas Knowles (Book)  

Nicholas Knowles

http://www.youblisher.com/p/167543-The-Life-of-Nicholas-Knowles/

In Memory of Nicholas (Photos)  

Memories of Nick

http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.200427403306251.62086.100000169790640

http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.200441689971489.62093.100000169790640

http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.200519666630358.62124.100000169790640

On the Road  

White eyes face while red eyes race                                        toward some place.

Steely beasts run                                                                       eyes burn bright                                                                                Grey path witness                                                                             steely beasts flight.

Crow flies high, bearing above the place                                        of Earth's disgrace.                                                                      And we travel on,                                                                          as fast as we can.                                                                     Past the river of old, now gentle brook,                                          all that remains                                                                              of what once earth shook.

And though this place may seem the end,                                        the road continues, twists and bends.                                            Eye of horizon, farthest point.                                                       Further still we fly                                                                  Shadow shielded mountain side                                                     closer, closer as we ride.

Fine pine, finds purchase.                                                             Stones embrace                                                                        buries secrets old, sought by bold.                                               To be sold on the road.

            N.K.  98

Published in the 1999 Oracle                                              Onondaga Community College                                                Student Newspaper

 

 

 

The Garden  

Life is sweet and never fleet                                                         when you're in the garden.

Wayward though One distraught                                                   When she took from the tree the tiny seed                                      from which all things grow.

The mind is so small before the fall.                                             Before the feasts release the beast.

It calls!  To you it calls!                                                    Temptations sweet release.                                                             To surrender now seems best.                                                        Enter now the serpents nest.

But now that you have crossed                                                 Beyond the line of fallen grace                                                           And driven from this tranquil place                                                 The horizon seems so much farther than before.

If offered now a wayward glance                                                        A second line another chance.                                                   Surely you would turn away                                                               For you are larger now today.

The garden seems a tiny place.                                                         It limits mind and limits space.                                                        And with the fall you have glimpsed it all.                                          To go back now is not to do.                                                            Not for me and not for you.

               N.K.  98

Published in the 1999 Oracle 

Onondaga Community College                                                           Student Newspaper

More of his legacy...
 
Nicholas's Photo Album
Revised Tattoo
Jump To:
Go to Album >> Open full-screen Slideshow >>
Transfer Photos into a Hardbound Book >>

Bring the memories home by publishing your online memorial as a genuine hardcover keepsake